hearty

no hearts.no feelings.just empty.why do u leave me?just because of that old picture?here's a letter to my heart
dear heart,i'm so sorry coz keep on hurting you.im letting myself to fall for a guy..that doesnt want me at all.;(
i love him.i sacrificed a lot for him.first break up is fine,second break up is okay.but the 3rd break up,what can i say.i love u so dearly,why do you have to treat me like that?i'm crying myself to sleep..im speechless.why..why..(T.T)i saw ur fb..i think u r moving on..it's very sad to see the one u loved,leave u by not saying goodbye..i'm strong..i know i can do it..i know i can move on..a big regret of my life..u dont even care what happened to me......look at the bright side...i have more friends..i'm not perfect at all..im sorry coz this girl cant make u love her..it's SO PAINFUL.
when im sick,where were you..i was hoping u could come..and look after me..but u didnt..when im so sad..where were you..you were with ur frens..happily..but u never realized how i felt..almost everyday,i have been crying myself to sleep.that's not a lie.u never cared..i lose wan...u leave me when i need you..when i was driving alone at 10 pm,going back to the campus,what did you do?where were you?you with ur friends.AGAIN.I need you,but u were never be there for me.you have wasted so much time with them and i dont want to see myself marrying a guy that put other thing as his 1st priority..my position is ALWAYS at the bottom of ur list right?i didnt asked u to buy bmw for me,i dont need ur money,cars and cash.all i want is u treat me nicely.but u never appreciated me.u called or texted me when u need me..but when i need you,where were you?it's not fair at all.now,you're moving on,all i can do is smile..feeling the pain..at the age of 21..u know how i have always felt..for you..u know i love you..but u and ur ego..u accused me..becoz of that picture,you leave me just like a that..i'm almost gone mad..and thankfully,im a diploma holder..even if u r not reading this,i want u to know..i'll remember what have u done to me..on my final year of diploma.i'm lucky to have great friends and that's the only thing i'll never regret throughout these 3 years.The only thing that can make me strong enough to face this is to delete you from my life..forever..i dont want to remember anything about you..coz diz has been driving me crazy..for 3 months..i want to be happy..let me go..i cant be like this forever..u know who you are..i have never love someone..like this..so badly..if i move on one day,remember i have loving u so much more than i love myself and that is so wrong..becoz u have to love urself first,then u can love others..