about the past

i still cant get over you,
i still cant.
please help me.i dunno what's going on between us.u& me,it was a lovely story.our love story starts,when i thought u're the most annoying person in the world back then.everytime,u passed me with ur green baju mlayu,u're always giggled there with ur friends.and i find that was annoying.and i kept on hearing ur names,well from my bestie darel.
at first,i didnt bothered much when u text me..but i have a bit feelngs towards you..when u were dating with the gal,i pretend not to look at you,but actually,i looked at you when you're not even looking..till the day,i did a prank call to u..and then it starts.u're such a sweet person..i can remembered how u would acted when i was around..i can c ur face blushed when ur friends teased you..
1 km away,i can see ur widest smile when u saw me waving at you..our love was great..we made promises to each other..and i still kept ur doll..and i dont want to throw it away..it all just lies wan..and it surprised me,u remembered my full name even i didnt know u dat tyme..we're both going out..and untill that day..u bought me the little teddy keychain..and gave it to me..i was so happy..and i loved it so much..too bad the teddy lost his arms..we would texted each other,every single days..every nite...and i could see ur smile..
i always remembered u could called me ham2..and i called u miao2..sad nw..i wish u were with me..too bad..u were with her rite now..

a sad moment

how i wished that this wouldnt turned to be this way?how wish i could return back to the time that i made a mistake to u?im such a fool.m trying hard to get over him.he's rite now happy with his new gal while im d one who stuck with our memories.i know u're not that kind of person.and i know,u're not mean.and never will.i want to hear from urself.that's all lies.it broke my heart when she answered the call and telling u were still asleep.it hurts deeper.i made a lot of promises with you.we were so happy back then..y?y?y u did diz to me..u broke up with me..d nite before our 1st year anniversary.well,its easy to say dat i can forget u.but truthfully,i cant.i just wish u could read diz.i wish u knew i love u more than u could have imagined..i wished everythg was normal..just like back then..i wish u were in love with me once again..how could u do diz to me..i love u always,and for now,be happy with the gal tht u re currently in love now..i couldnt imagined,u played our songs to her..she took u away from me..it likes i have been robbed.i dun even know what to say.im trying to move on..and sadly,if i did,i wouldnt turned back anymore.i will kept on looking forward.if i do so,it hurts me deeper.and deeper.the wounds are still there.at my chest.only me,and god know,how it felt..it aint easy..

i know you want me

choose one.diz ice cream or me?no.im taken by my wawan.so u have to choose tht ice cream.

I know you want me

u knw i want you

i m so addicted to this song!nice~

im being myself.and happy for who i am.nobody can bring me down!

Dear bloggie,it has been two months i have been in miri.im not active in my blogging activities,well this is it.Im a bit sad to leave miri actually,because i have to be independent if im at my uni.well,when im at home,i have nothing to worry about..$$ problems obviously..my food..my laundry..everything is being taken care of.

My first job ever at the age of 20,A TUITION TEACHER!SO,my first day was quite bad.I didnt prepared at all.:( there were a few notty students which reminds me lil bit of myself..but over all,i think my job is okay.the students did show some efforts.i appreciated them a lot.since this is my first job.i didnt earned much..but tht's gonna be fine since i have nothing to do at home..

And i have realized that i have to learn to appreciate my friends.sometimes,it is nice to do thgs for urself..:) no pressure at all.just me.<3till>

another day of boredom

study,study,study,till my head felt wanna explode.try to open my facebook page,still didnt managed to open it.few weeks to go.and am going back to miri..for 2 months!!!!im not in the mood rite now.i mish him so badly.(T.T)and i hope u felt the same way my dear.wish me luck.:)

6.29 pm

this coming week is my final exam.I am not fully prepared.crossed my finger.hopefully everything will be fine.yesterday,something makes me dissapointed.a lot.wish i never knew about this.its hurting me.maybe i am the one who is too sensitive or just im not the lucky one.im being nice to people,but they just dont appreciate my efforts.i started to piss off.i should just hide my feelings.and pretend there's nothing happened.this is what happened when you are totally NOTHING.im not smart,yet not pretty.but just a simple girl trying hard to get through with my life.sometimes, i need space.for myself.rite now,kinda broke becoz overspent.:(

and it is nothing wrong for me to plan to buy smthg for my self rite?erm.let me think.A LOT.but rite now im thinking of my boi.wanna spend time with him.it is not fair for him if i spend too much time wif my peeps.love u so much.

geeks Rule

today..i was so busy online and started to notice something.my friends in my facebook and friendster.Some of them..i am not sure how to say this.But they have become very weird.U know,ever since that particular person has added me in her FB/FS,she didnt even drop a comment to my page.But that's just fine.What i saw was she was busy giving comments to her other friends which is i dont think she even close to them.What i am trying to say is,people are giving more attention to those smart people.Well,rite now i am taking diploma..but if compared to them,i am far away behind.And im not being sponsored or getting those special treatments when im in this university since i'm not doing well in my study.When i sat in the class,i could see cliques.The smart geeks,the jokers,the bimbos,the famous one,the poplar one,the athletes and many more.I am not sure i am in which category.But the geeks are usually get the attention.haha.This is not like the west just like in the movies..people adore the famous one and popular one..
GEeks cant be cool.Unless there were some makeovers.Perhaps,i should be one of the geeks?studying till morning and neglect all my entertainments?erm..wanna do it in my way."study hard,play hard"

Tomorrow is monday.Formal day.I didn't manage to iron my clothes yet..(-_-)
No matter i try so hard to look cool,and act cool.I still didn't get the spotlight.:(
I still get the "u r spoiled girl and u dont have a brain" look from people.I try to be nice.yeah.so hard.But people are always did that to me.Its time to change.
1.study hard
2.get good pointer
3.dress up nicely
4.diet to the maximum
5.talk to people nicely
6.dont talk rubbish(yawn)
7.get to know all the latest books(im not a bookworm) and movies
8.follow the rules
9.do some baking at home
10.switch r&b to jazz

ahhhhhhhhhhh.that is so not me.I cant change myself
solutions:be urself.If they like you,they will accept you.

Let me decribe things about myself,i am the girl who loves to spend her time with the people that she loved,and try to be individual.I am not the one who always act like characters in drama series such as gossip girls.I am the girl that enjoyed and love to make friends with people if the people are friendly to me.If i told you i love somthg,that's mean i really meant it.Some of my friends did say i have already forgotten them.That's not an excuse to bring me down and as i know,you are the one who always envied me all the time and forgets me all the time.Dont ever try to mess with me.I can be nice,i can be loving and i can be ur worst enemy.I am into R&B and techno because honestly,i love music.And if i have talent i would go further.:p
I can be a good listener if u listened to me.I am always try to be individuality.I love pink.I want to rules my own country if i get to be a president and named my country Pink Kingdom.And every monday, all the citizens would wear pink clothes.And the whole street would be in pink color.Even guys MUST wear pink and love pink too in PInk KIngdom.ahaha.My fantasy.Genius isn't it?
I love to chill out with my friends till morning.This is what i do.I dont like to talk ill about people as what some other girls love to do.I coloured my hair whenever i felt like i want to do it.I go for pink as my colour last year and get caught by "most" favorite person in my UNi,the guards.
Dont try to act as if you are good in front of me,but you were not.
I want to be idolized.I want to be the person people who would be proud of to be friend with.I love to socialize with friendly people.And that is me.I am not the one who sit in my room and read books.I prefered fashion magazine because i love fashion so much that i want to have my own lines one day.Insyaallah.I want to be the trend setter.Let people remember my name.And i wont forget yours if you remember mine.:p.I love to enjoy myself so much that i dont even care what's on your mind.Dont simply judge me.


x0x0.
love
saza

23rd february

it has been a while i didnt post new entry..and this is it.
okay..today i woke up late...and getting so bored with my uni life with all typical thinking people.i just wish students here can be more open minded..and we can dressed up nicely.(etc;skirts and shorts)haha.ryte now i am missing you so badly..
yoU?
my syg of course.mwahx(^^)
i have a lot of thgs to do..i m started to get pissed off my hair..its getting critical..omg~and i started to think i have been idolized by sumone.*wink.at first i was so mad..omg by thinking of her i would get pissed off..dont u have anythg to do besides try to be muaa.hahaha.jk.but at last i can handle it..yea2.so wat..im her idol..hahaha
till then,
x0x0

my sis's besday

my sis's besday..26th january..
Happy birthday to you!


ahaha.:D
i am so happy..rite now,i am so drooling over a new thg..i love that bag so much and i really want to own it.:D crossed my finger.i know i'm gonna have it.With my own money.correction.my parent's money.well, i am not working yet.so considered that is my parent's money.(^_^)
I want to go for shopping with my boyfriend..hee..i love you dear..mwahx.i don't want to use my old clothes anymore.too much bad memories.:D perhaps.since now is a new year.wishing myself to have a great year,new chapter and not to forget,i am no more a teenage girl.sad.:(
20 years old yeah?
and i wanna lose weight too.hee.

lame stories

tersebutlah kisah,sebuah kisah..haha...apabila si gadis bertemu dgn si pemuda..dan perhubungan mereka berakhir begitu saja dan si gadis itu telah kecewa serta terluka dan tidak menjangka ada pemuda yang sooo much better akan datang ke dalam hidupnya yang bernama wawan..dan sekarang si gadis itu sangat bahagia di samping pemuda yang tercinta..dan semalam si gadis itu melihat pemuda yang bernama **** yang pernah mengecewakannya berada di paxen bersama dengan seorg gadis baru yang cantik.she looks like a nice person..si gadis itu berasa kasihan melihat si gadis baru itu dan berharap si gadis baru itu tidak termakan dan tertipu dengan pemuda jahat itu...sesungguhnya pemuda itu adalah gillete..dan segala pisau cukur yang tajam..dan sharp..and to all girls out there,just beware of this type of boi..they just know how to talk sweet and make promises that never will come true.please.the end.


p/s:i love my wawan so much and glad i broke up with dat dude.haha(evil laughs)
WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.
Rite now,i have a new chapter in my life.
:D

chinese new year is coming soon

happy chinese new year to all my friends..
:D

rite now,im trying to be positive..
haih..im soo negative about everything..bcoz i owez expected worst of the worst.my syg was rite.haaaha..sayang mish you so muchhhhhhh!n i wanna turned off my negative sides of me

23rd january

me and cayang

Homer looks cute.ahah.okay2.i know sayang would read this...
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Birthday wish for my sayang..
Looks better than dat pix of homer.haha..

my sayang edi 20.i love you sayang..so3 much..on 22nd we celebrated his birthday.. his 20th birthday.he has turned 20..i hope you like my gift my dear..hee..that day is the best day for me..seriously..never felt happy like this before..omg..sayang was very sweet that time..no one..i mean no one ever treated me like you did dear..i know..maybe sounds too jiwangness..but i really mean it..and you kept on saying that u love me..u r so sweet..am so lucky to have you..feels like in heaven...i cant described..i cant explained..but as i know,you are special to me


Best Birthday It’s your birthday...
and I’m thinking how glad I am
that you were born.
You have given me so much--
supported me, encouraged me,
cared for me; I didn't even need to ask.
I celebrate your wonderful self!
I am in awe of your boundless generosity,
your infinite kindness--that gentle inner glow
that you so freely use to warm my life.
Your birthday is as much a celebration for me
as it is for you, maybe more,
and I wish for you the best of birthdays,
the best one ever.
May each birthday be better than the last.
Most of all, I hope you will always be
As happy as you have made me.

By Joanna Fuchs